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[30 Mar 2004|02:49pm] |
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im slipping again.. i dont know what to do.
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[23 Feb 2004|08:27pm] |
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never watch the movie thirteen. i wasted my sunday on it.
i had a dentist appointment today. i hate going there. they always floss where my retainers are glued in and it hurts. because im too lazy to do it.
after, me and ian went to hustler. i saw the biggest glass dildo ive ever seen in my entire life. it was like a statue. for loose vaginas. mmm ameteur porn.
FIDDY AND LUDA, YOU UP FOR SOME SAILING WITH CAPTAIN R. MILLNER SATURDAY NIGHT?
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[21 Feb 2004|01:44pm] |
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super troopers |
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i felt bad/sick all week and took it out on ian. i dont mean to. last night was his party. i have nothing to say about that.
EXCEPT afterwards, i stayed the night at ashlis and we went sailing. we danced, reiterated, made hearts of crust. we is down fo life.
and now im waiting for waork.. 3:30-11:30. come skate? my dads gone for a week and a half.
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[29 Dec 2003|10:34pm] |
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space heater
SHOE
speed lines
TOUCH UP
sand
PILLOW
lamelamelamelamelamellama
mr wiggles?
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[09 Dec 2003|08:24pm] |
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 for ryan ;) |
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i had my interview at skatetown usa today. its gonna be a pretty sweet job.. working at a skating rink haha. i might get to wear a costume and skate. which can only equal disaster haha bastard little kids. i like how it smells there so ill be happy. the managers a dyke. its hot.
uh. work was lame today. im going to finish out the week and be DONE. i like how my boobs look in this shirt. today was a nice day. nick gave me a tape that im sure will explode. my heating and cooling unit dont play. art sex is good.
***fiddy, since you cant talk to me, let me know about tub ring. jjjjjjjjjj j-uNIT!
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[07 Dec 2003|01:40pm] |
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things have been.. interesting.. lately.
thursday, i was going out to tri county to return the pink shoes and i got lost. i was thinking about things and i missed my exit, which is hard to do since its the next one after i get on. so i called ian because he knows everywhere in ohio and we ended up talking and made plans to hang out friday.
friday, i got paid and then met ian at the rave and saw cat in the hat. it was like we never even broke up it was weird. i picked rachel up at 10:30 and we went to ashleys. and things went downhill from there haha
well it was fine at first but rachel didnt stop herself so she passed out and i thought she was dying. then sara passed out. and then things were fine. we stayed up and watched rachel till 4 then went to sleep.
i came home at 2 took a shower ate and went to see ryan. it took a while but his hot body made it worth it.
and now im sitting here at 2 in my pajamas still. i dont know if i feel like doing anything. why do my parents and daniel like football so much? theyll be leaving soon.
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| Like the very first moment we kissed.. |
[30 Nov 2003|08:57pm] |
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i went to dinner with micahs family again last nite.. and i dont think theyll ever like me. they made me leave at 9. on a saturday nite. i went and talked to mike for a couple hours then went home and slept.. it was nice.
my mom was PMSing and speeding today.. its a horrible combination. she yelled at me all day thenm as soon as micah showed up, she acted all nice. since he left shes been yelling.
i really dont want to go back tomorrow. my portraitures gonna be crap. i dont think ill want to print any of them. i have a project due tuesday for french and a paper due wednesday for photography. i havent started either and i work monday and tuesday.
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[28 Nov 2003|03:48pm] |
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my thanksgiving was crap. i had to clean a lot and being stuck in my house with my family all day is bad enough, but my extended family was here too. my cousins hid one of my shoes from me and i dont think i will ever find it and since my parents think its somehow my fault, im sure ill be paying for my new shoes.
i was scheduled to work today 7-3, so i went in at 7 and they told me i wasnt scheduled. they took me off a couple days ago and didnt bother letting me know. i ended up working anyways though. it was busy all day.
i need to go to tri county, but i know the traffic will make me kill myself.
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| theyre coming from every direction |
[26 Nov 2003|11:53pm] |
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there are no words to describe how good i feel. for once i am optimistic. for once i think i may have a successful relationship.
last night was interesting. i missed rachel. and i hate you jake for punching me.
if i could sleep now, this would be a perfect day.
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[22 Nov 2003|09:51pm] |
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friday was early release and the last day before break. work wasnt so bad even though i had to do the last party and got no tip. but i got my check. and i talked to josh when i got home. SUNDAY.
i didnt really sleep last night. i cleaned my car. i miss all my stuff now. my mom made fun of me for a while. then i guess 2 intervention reports came for me and only one for mike so that made her hate me more.
i got a new hat and mittens at valley today. hung out with marc for a while and finally got my subway.
i really hope things work tomorrow because.. i feel like shit. i have to re-quit smoking now which pisses me off because i never want to smoke another cigarette in my life. and old habits are reappearing.. damn. micah called right wafter i left and a little before i got home but he was sleeping when i called back.
i want help.
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[19 Nov 2003|07:31pm] |
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you and i - revision |
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my mom confirmed her great dislike for me tonite. cheryl left earlier then i thought she would. i think somethings wrong with my car again. i was told all the negative things about myself for the past 2 hours.
the highlight of my day was the rain.
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| the z in 'jay z' doesnt stand for zebra cakes.. |
[18 Nov 2003|07:29pm] |
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after this week, we have a week off.. i just want to sleep. thanksgiving dinner is at MY house this year. that means no escaping. the toy for this week is a pocket sized retractable light up dildo. i didnt sleep last nite. i have a lot of homework to do. hmm.. i finally know what to do.
I <3 ASHLI. feel better hot stuff.
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[16 Nov 2003|06:19pm] |
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friday i worked a few hours then went and saw matrix3. i didnt like it. and then i was informed of a few things and went home..
saturday i went to traders world with nick duncan and phil. stayed with nick and duncan at suzettes..
why?
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| the storm = my one true love. |
[13 Nov 2003|08:07pm] |
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so.. today was good. whjich it usually isnt. my math isnt due til monday so maybe i can sleep tonite.
i did it. sort of.
only 4 hours of work tonite in back drive.. <3. paid marc a visit. hmhmhm.
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[12 Nov 2003|08:06pm] |
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today was ok. mikes car got a flat. i got to pick my car up and it runs. good now. applied at media play did my math homework and went to best buy where i got free cds. i think thats the ionly good thinmg thats come out of mcdonalds. ran into dusty, ryan and jamie at best buy.
im hungry but nothing sound good. i have to figure something out. i guess ill talk to phil tomorrow and maybe he can help me............ i want this. sort of. no i do.
hm. fights=crap. ugh i dont want to work tomorrow.. i think its only 3-7 though.. and friday its only 3-6.. so you know.
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[10 Nov 2003|09:45pm] |
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school went slow today. me and mike both woke up late. having money makes me feel good. i dont know how i went a month on one paycheck..
work was busy and john came back and asked why i havent called yet. he said the age difference is cool with him if its cool with me.
my parents took my car in today so hopefully ill have it back tomorrow. but i know it wont do it for them.
ive got a 'dilemma,' shall we say..
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[09 Nov 2003|07:34pm] |
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saturday we had our state game and my coach informed me it was all my fault we lost. good. because now i dont have to play anymore.
went to ashlis with nick duncan and tyler.. phil was there for a while but he went home. i had fun. oh yes.. nick wouldnt let me sleep so im dead.
didnt really do anythinmg today. i did all my homework because my parents are being so gay about it. they find it necessary to tell everyone how stupid they think i am. my dad is being such a jerk tonite.
i dont know what to do..
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[07 Nov 2003|10:28pm] |
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work was long/cold today. some like, 20 year old business man gave me his number and told me to call him. hes a loan broker or soemthing. hot. maybe ill hit him up tomorrow?
my car broke down again and i got mikes van. now i can race. tomorrow i get to cash my check. and give 90 to my dad.. and i have state tomorrow. ugh. and job search more. and i guess i have to clean my car.. my dads being a negro bout it bout it.
i guess we cant afford heat at my house.. im scared of how cold it is in my room.
i liked it better when i never slept. i dont have time to sleep..
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[05 Nov 2003|03:28pm] |
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nothing note worthy has happened. i got to see marc saturday.. i missed him. other then that i slept most of saturday sunday monday and some of tuesday. 4 day weekend, 3 day week, and then par-tay at JCS's house. babar better be there.. i miss my baby. i sported a hot comb over today. i hate makeup work.
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